My first day back to work was hard. I vomited so many times over the 14 hours that I was there. All my muscles in my body ache. People were really nice, though, about everything. Overall, it was good to be back in the ER. My mom brought me lunch, which made things extra special. It was weird to be a nurse again. I have went so long not being able to make decisions about my own health, and now I must help other people make decisions. It did feel good to be asked questions about work related things. I guess, in some ways, it made me feel like a member of society again.
Driving has been weird, too. It’s all new again for me. Tomorrow, I’ll have to do it all over again. It might kill me a second time around, but I need to try. I guess that I am having a harder time than I thought I would adjusting to normal life again. It’s all very confusing for me. I wish that I felt better. If I could get the nausea down more, I could be more like 90% better. I know that I am still not functioning at my best.